5 more days...
Off to London on Friday. I wonder how this trip will turn out. Hopefully it'll be safe and plesant, and that we don't develop any gay instincts over there or Shipei's gonna skin me when we return. How would it feel to see the same guy who isn't family each day for 12 days? Ick. I'm not that particular occupational therapist. :P Tho I could well live with that if it's been some babe I'm travelling with. (I hope Jit doesn't read this till Friday) But seriously, I'm feeling abit sian now, don't seem to be looking forward to it as much as I did. Could it be due to the fact that I'm all comfy and subconsciously satisfied with my lifestyle these few weeks, no matter how meaningless it has been? >.<
It always seem to be like that tho - being all so enthusiastic before the trip, and as departure day draws to a close, I don't seem as eager as before. However, everything's back to before once the plane takes off and the trip will eventually turn out great, just like my previous vacations to America, UK, Perth and more recently, Melbourne.
Gonna have to return to camp later for just a day. Shouldn't really be complaining tho they're eating another off day, as I have been excused on Tuesday. Besides, I have to get S3's signature on my leave form and there's negotiation to be done regarding my trip to Cresendo. Hopefully, things turn out my way. Speaking of 'my way', I finally got to take my dad's car out! Drove to Jit's house for overnight mahjong and back home again with half my brain switched off. Was dead beat and groggy in the morning that I was tempted to U-zap my head to wake myself up. But thanks to Yx's 'escort' which kept me awake, I made it back safely :P 5 guys, 3 cars, what convenience. A sign of good things to come?
I don't know if it's the late nights or the increment of smoke in my lungs, but I've been having a shortage of breath recently. I bet KT's gonna say "I told you so! Now you deserve to die". Been coughing a little and there's like some phelgm choking me up. urrgh. Doubt I'll be missed anyway.
My grandmother's been given 3 months to live by the doctor during her check up last Thursday. A vast difference of 5 months since her last visit 2 weeks ago. Her condition is deteriorating fast. Held her birthday celebration last night in which all in the family came to gather. It's so hyprocritical of them to just show up on such an occasion and not visit any other day, as if they came all concerned and such. And that very night, not many spoke to her.. maybe because she seemed so weak and tired. But most of my relatives were either playing mahjong, talking about golfing, the elections or COE prices etc, while the kids were busy with Xbox 360. Did it occur to them that it could have been her final birthday?
I spent a good 11 years of my childhood with her. Tho most of it were bad memories of her finding fault with the maid, causing quarrels between my parents and constantly bringing me to tears, it's all over. I guess I still have to respect her as my grandparent and I really wish I could converse with her during these difficult times of her life. (I can't speak good Teochew) It scares me when I put myself in her shoes, waking up each day, knowing that your days are numbered despite how others seem to hide it from you. Every pill consumed is just a way of prolonging things to come. I expect to look back in my life and see it as a life well lived when that day arrives.
It always seem to be like that tho - being all so enthusiastic before the trip, and as departure day draws to a close, I don't seem as eager as before. However, everything's back to before once the plane takes off and the trip will eventually turn out great, just like my previous vacations to America, UK, Perth and more recently, Melbourne.
Gonna have to return to camp later for just a day. Shouldn't really be complaining tho they're eating another off day, as I have been excused on Tuesday. Besides, I have to get S3's signature on my leave form and there's negotiation to be done regarding my trip to Cresendo. Hopefully, things turn out my way. Speaking of 'my way', I finally got to take my dad's car out! Drove to Jit's house for overnight mahjong and back home again with half my brain switched off. Was dead beat and groggy in the morning that I was tempted to U-zap my head to wake myself up. But thanks to Yx's 'escort' which kept me awake, I made it back safely :P 5 guys, 3 cars, what convenience. A sign of good things to come?
I don't know if it's the late nights or the increment of smoke in my lungs, but I've been having a shortage of breath recently. I bet KT's gonna say "I told you so! Now you deserve to die". Been coughing a little and there's like some phelgm choking me up. urrgh. Doubt I'll be missed anyway.
My grandmother's been given 3 months to live by the doctor during her check up last Thursday. A vast difference of 5 months since her last visit 2 weeks ago. Her condition is deteriorating fast. Held her birthday celebration last night in which all in the family came to gather. It's so hyprocritical of them to just show up on such an occasion and not visit any other day, as if they came all concerned and such. And that very night, not many spoke to her.. maybe because she seemed so weak and tired. But most of my relatives were either playing mahjong, talking about golfing, the elections or COE prices etc, while the kids were busy with Xbox 360. Did it occur to them that it could have been her final birthday?
I spent a good 11 years of my childhood with her. Tho most of it were bad memories of her finding fault with the maid, causing quarrels between my parents and constantly bringing me to tears, it's all over. I guess I still have to respect her as my grandparent and I really wish I could converse with her during these difficult times of her life. (I can't speak good Teochew) It scares me when I put myself in her shoes, waking up each day, knowing that your days are numbered despite how others seem to hide it from you. Every pill consumed is just a way of prolonging things to come. I expect to look back in my life and see it as a life well lived when that day arrives.
