buried alive.: October 2004

Sunday, October 31, 2004

The weeks get tougher.. and the weekends get better?

The week passed pretty fast.. probably because I booked out twice to MMI @ NUH. Haha. The review on my knee is out. Nothing serious it seems, but I escaped with an excuse from SOC for a year. Main event was Excercise Penguin.. which had us Camo on. EEEW! :( But expect more of those days to come. *Sigh* I hate camo. Does bad to my face.. which is already in pretty bad shape. Sigh. Last week my team came in 1st for both navex.. this week.. last. Not only that, we didn't complete! Crap. I guess when you are under someone, you gotta take his 'orders'. That resulted in us missing our check points and wasting lotsa time. Damn it. Oh well, I don't wanna touch on the topic again. Ticks me off. Glad it's over.. Excercise Eagle tomorrow tho, I think it's Air Photo, shdn't be that tiring (I hope). But camo is inevitable...

Celebrated Yong Rui's bday yesterday. Went to Orchard with him and Yi Eng. Haha. YR still looks the same.. pretty much the goofy gentleman who always gets bullied. Poor fella suffered a break up with Zhiyu. I hope he gets over it soon. Won't be seeing him for a long time.. till I return to 30 SCE that is. Yi Eng on the other hand.. hah.. has changed pretty much I guess. Her dressing! (I apologize if you are reading this.. haha) She seems more..er. Matured I guess. Skimpy outfits much, eh? :P I suppose this is what they mean by "Girls tend to be more open during tertiary education". Tho it seems that I should be glad, I somewhat feel indifferent about it. -shrug- Anyway, went to Taka.. and the xmas decorations are up.. just not lighted. Can't wait for Christmas.. Shoik feeling. Always in the holiday mood then, the atmosphere, the spirit, romance?? and etc. Bah. 55 more days till then. And 32 more days till the fking course is over!, tho each week is gonna get tougher..
Chat a lil with Yi Eng yesterday too.. regarding things like KT.. Was told that she still classifies me as a friend coz she gave me her new hp no. But thinking about it, why give it to me if you don't wanna answer/reply my call/Sms. (Note : singular) Ah well, I'll try to be positive about that. Don't wanna seem like a whining baby. Bleah. Seems that I am able to communicate better with her these days... we've matured perhaps? And there's no 'avoidance' or 'uneasy feeling' . -shrug- I wish I could communicate to other girls that naturally too. Ah well... won't get the chance to for some time anyway.

Forecast for next week.. another excercise (Sigh) and GPMG live firing. Wee. Seems fun, not everyone gets to do it. And I hope I survive and not do anything stupid. *prays* The weeks seem to be passing faster.. maybe because we're doing tiring things that gets our mind off the wait-for-weekend. But then again, weekends seem to be passing faster too. Sheesh. I guess it's something psychological. And please.. get off my feet you stupid foot rot!!

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Sunday, October 24, 2004

Shagged out ah!

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meh!

What a week it has been, both tiring and yet enjoyable. :)

Had my 1st nagivation excercise on Thursday, not bad.. my grp came in first for both day and night navex. It was pretty interesting, and simple too I would say. Pity I had real bad foot rot and blisters.. which made me called out to the group to slow down. Others felt that I was whining and can't tolerate pain. Hai. Felt kinda bad, maybe I am truly over pampered and whine a lot. Maybe that's a side of me which I didn't notice back in BMT, and perhaps that's why I'm where I am. I hope to learn from this lesson and try to grit my teeth and bear with the way things are the next time round.

Yesterday was nice, same routine jog at bedok reservior, except Yx provided us with Taxi services the whole day. haha. After jog, went to his house, then to Katong to meet Nigel for lunch, and back home again before going to Anna's house for her bday. I can't wait to drive, it seems so convenient. Oh well, another half a year I guess.
Saw a lot of old pals at the Bday party... ppl from Ahs... Lichuan, Xihao, Pris, Andy, Charmain, etc. Caught up with some of them, but most of the time we ended up talking about NS stuff. haha, Guess that's what happen when you see nothing but SAF crap 5 days a week. :( It was really cosy.. and felt like some Chinese New Yr meeting. Anna cried too while cutting her cake coz her dad who isn't usually around showed affection she didn't expect. I wish my family was as happy as hers.
Had a little too much to drink too at her place, or either that I drank too fast. Stupid bet with Yihui made me felt so numb in my senses and couldn't really control what I was doing. Hope I didn't really make a fool out of myself like what Nigel said I did.. Malu -.-|||. Furthermore they claimed that I was shouting "Charmain! Charmain!" while waking to the MRT station, I hope that didn't happen. Blah.

Hmm, next week going to be sionger than last.. ah screw. Every week is gonna be tougher than the previous week from now on. Suddenly I realise why they said my course was siong.. I thought it was only the instructors.. then it wasn't too bad. But the excercises they put on paper seemed to be so easy.. until I really go outfield and do it. Sheesh. 6 man carrier boat, crew parade, gpmg theory and Excercise Penguin awaits me. arrgh! And need to camo on too! Damn..my face sure kena more acne again. :(

39 more days to go..!

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

45 days to go..

This will be my 3rd week in SOCE.. fast, yet slow too. Sigh. Tho everything has been fine so far.. I haven't got into any trouble and I've done pretty well for the tests, yet I still dislike being in camp. Maybe it's the feeling of being cut out from the world once again.. no nights off, no newspaper, no tv, no main road to see? LoL. Oh well, I ought to be glad that it's still so far so good. But our welfare is on the line now after that night which we failed to meet the lights off timing. Stupid coporals (OUR sgts-to-be) can't be bothered to zi dong, and turn off lights, despite us privates telling them to =/

Nice weekend so far.. pity it wasn't long enough. Celebrated Yuan Hwa's bday yesterday by keeping him company. (sounds like what we do every week even if there's no occasion.. =\) Had Sakae sushi, idled around at the Coffee Bean beside Borders, talked a lot of cock and stuff. Learnt that Nigel has a new girlfriend too. woots. Lucky him..? or not.. hmm. Strike 2 anyway. I wonder when will I get a gf.. or maybe.. when would I really bother or be desperate enough to get one.

Went to Bedok Reservior to run this morning with Jit and Yihui.. not bad. It was kinda refreshing. Didn't know running out of camp can be enjoyable. Ran 4.3km.. no sweat! haha. Must be the stupid training I had back at 30 SCE.. now running don't seem to be a problem to me... except for my knee giving way after a longer distance. I wonder if we could make this a weekly routine, would be fun if everyone of us could go for a weekly Sunday morning jog.

2 excercises coming up this week.. Emu and Eagle. Tomorrow'll be Emu, whole day planning I heard. Hope I will cope well. 120 more hrs to the next book out. Urghz. Mm, least it will be 40 days the next time I blog. :)

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Sunday, October 10, 2004

First week @ SOCE

sigh, I guess I'm just too sentimental. Just a few days out of Jurong Camp and I already miss it so much. Perhaps I was spoilt during my stay in S2 for 2 months.. those days with nights off, so much welfare, tv, and although the living conditions suck, I would gladly go back there instead of staying as a trainee in Nee Soon. Oh well, 8 weeks to go. I hope it passes fast. :) I really miss the peepz back in Jurong.. Staff Tsai, Sgt Marv, Vimallan, etc. Maybe even the CSM.

The course has actually been ok so far, tho my instructors are too darn garang and it's too regimental for my liking. Hopefully they'll cut us some slack as we proceed on with the course. The theory we learn can really be quite demanding.. soil testing, signals, GPMG firing, topo, etc. But it's hella interesting, beats stupid section movement. Heard that next yr I'll be going on a jeep course.. and it's STAY OUT too! Wots, can't wait for then, and hopefully I can convert to a civilian license.

Time seems to fly tho, it's Octobet now, and the next bookout, it'll be mid-Oct. Almost the end of 2004. But it's only 7 months in NS for me. Can't wait for X'mas. Always hope to have a romantic xmas.. but it hasn't happened for 18 yrs. heh.

Just came back from Century Square.. whole place under renovation. Was pretty sad when I saw the Kenny Rogers being destroyed.. it brought lotsa memories. Especially those dinners I had with Kt when she was having her BC tuition. I guess what I said in my previous post is possible.. time changes things. The real life locations are constantly changing and no longer can I revisit it, except in my memories. Places like Ahs, some parts of TM/CS, even Orchard. I think I sound silly, but each place that I've been to with special people tend to carve a memory in my heart and whenever I revisit there, I'm able to recollect everything. Ah, screw it, I can't seem to put my thoughts into words, think I'm stressed out as I have to hurry back to camp soon. =/

Be back in 5 days.. I hope.

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

SOCE? Urgh

Hai. Off I go to SOCE this coming Wednesday. I've heard many terrible things about it.. in the Recce Training Wing. 8 weeks sia. I hope things go well.

Went for an MRI scan for my left knee yesterday. Cost the SAF $700+ sia. Quite cool, they placed me in this noisy chamber and I had to lie there for 50 mins! -.- I may be downgraded due to my knee.. tho it's irritating and gives way frequently, but I am not sure if it is very serious. The doctor asked if I wanted to downgrade.. quite in a mix of things. Some parts of me saying I wish to, serve 6 months less, maybe 8 to 5. But it's all a gamble.. besides life in S2 is great. My Captain's a nice man too. urghz. Decisions.

Heard this conversation from a movie today.. it goes somewhat like this..
"Is there a cure for missing someone dearly?"
"Yes, that's to actually see that person"
"What if you don't get to anymore?"
"Then time will take its course, and the longing of wanting to see that person will fade away into memories"

I wonder if I'll allow all the times spent with her fade away into memories... Sigh. Maybe the saying is true, nothing lasts forever. I guess the only thing that may be forever will be rememberence of her.

hai. Why is it always I rush to blog just before going back to camp? =/ I always have so much to say when I day dream thru out the week yet when I come home, my priority goes to the game instead of this blog. Blah.
Back to camp now.. spent the past 4 nights at home. Kinda like a little honeymoon before my course.. but my Sunday's been burnt thanks to the stupid CSM signing me up for guard duty. Oh well.. Suck thumb, leaving 30 SCE with a guard duty. whee.

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Close up of the Esplanade.(Half of it)

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Me and the team w ho did this.