..signs of buckling
It's 12 am now. I've 2 more chapters (60+ pages) of marketing left to study. I've done only 150 pages despite NOT going out during the weekend. Was tempted to joined my Jc friends for dinner, or just go for supper with the guys so I can pass Quek the DAoC cd. Instead on Sat, I skipped lunch and ended up driving to Blk 201 for dinner, alone. Today's the same, went back to my old house to TRY to study, having lunch at Changi alone as well.
I thought I'm being hardworking, but *sigh*, my progress is still pathetic. And I can't assure myself that I've remembered everything I've read/studied. I hate that feeling... one that I haven't felt in a while. Stupid pressure acting on me again, making me wanna give up and just head to bed, prepared for the worst. It kinda reminds me of the O lvl days when I try to burn the midnight oil doing last minute revision for chinese. (it's ALL pure memory)
But I can't. ARGH! Anything below a 65% and there goes my ticket to Clayton/Caulfield. Yay, ranting away again. Maybe I've adopted a wrong approach in my studies, but something's changed for sure - I seem to have stopped gaming without much effort. (...I have not played a single computer game for 3 days now. And less than 3 hrs for the whole of last week.)
*stressed* I hope to get this studying technique figured out by the next test. Still an assignment due after tomorrow's marketing test and damn, must I score for it. The teacher seems to have some expectations of me. Back to the notes now, hopefully I can finish them.. and get a decent grade. I don't wanna lose to Esper again.
I thought I'm being hardworking, but *sigh*, my progress is still pathetic. And I can't assure myself that I've remembered everything I've read/studied. I hate that feeling... one that I haven't felt in a while. Stupid pressure acting on me again, making me wanna give up and just head to bed, prepared for the worst. It kinda reminds me of the O lvl days when I try to burn the midnight oil doing last minute revision for chinese. (it's ALL pure memory)
But I can't. ARGH! Anything below a 65% and there goes my ticket to Clayton/Caulfield. Yay, ranting away again. Maybe I've adopted a wrong approach in my studies, but something's changed for sure - I seem to have stopped gaming without much effort. (...I have not played a single computer game for 3 days now. And less than 3 hrs for the whole of last week.)
*stressed* I hope to get this studying technique figured out by the next test. Still an assignment due after tomorrow's marketing test and damn, must I score for it. The teacher seems to have some expectations of me. Back to the notes now, hopefully I can finish them.. and get a decent grade. I don't wanna lose to Esper again.
