Why give me a heart, when there's nothing else for it to feel?
One can't have whatever he wants in life.. and it's up to an individual's effort to get as close as possible to fulfilling that dream of his...blah blah blah. Yes, I've gotta consider myself blessed for quite many things.. too many in fact. From being born into a well-to-do family, having a great bunch of friends to being able to drive, and more recently, acquiring a personal laptop pretty much with ease. The list goes on..
However, one large chunk of my heart is hollow.. and it can't be filled with whatever I already have. That cavity in there which is reserved for a girlfriend. Am I THAT desperate? Or is 21 lonely years of solitude justifiable for such behavior? I believe I had my fair share of misplacing my affection in the wrong people and it seems this time it's happened again.
*Sigh* I've never felt loved or appreciated by a girl. Never did had the chance to feel that unique relationship most of my friends have had. Never had a chance to share whatever that makes me happy with the one special companion. Oh what I would give for that. There're so tangible things that I have, or could work towards, but this particular one never cease to elude me.
However, one large chunk of my heart is hollow.. and it can't be filled with whatever I already have. That cavity in there which is reserved for a girlfriend. Am I THAT desperate? Or is 21 lonely years of solitude justifiable for such behavior? I believe I had my fair share of misplacing my affection in the wrong people and it seems this time it's happened again.
*Sigh* I've never felt loved or appreciated by a girl. Never did had the chance to feel that unique relationship most of my friends have had. Never had a chance to share whatever that makes me happy with the one special companion. Oh what I would give for that. There're so tangible things that I have, or could work towards, but this particular one never cease to elude me.
